JOURNAL UPDATE
Hi Everyone,
A total bitch fest, feel free to skip to the updates.
Still struggling to get the lingerie company organized. The people that shipped the inventory couldn’t have done a shittier job packing it up to send it and I can’t help but think that the fella would have been a little more careful had he been sending it to a legitimate company and not some fetish girl named JJ Plush, complete negligence on behalf of the company that shipped the stuff! I worked a total of 41 hours from Thursday night to Monday night just putting items into containers because they were shipped so poorly that about 50 of the plastic bins containing the items shattered so lingerie went everywhere. So then on top of that 50 new $8 bins had to be purchased. I also had friends helping for a total of 21 hours from Friday-Monday night and had to pay them each $10 an hour for their help. So then I was 4 days behind and I couldn’t ship out the items, two weeks of backed up orders! On top of it I’m inventorying 1000s of items because there wasn’t a real system in place at the other company. I’m not going to lie, I’ve been having little crying fits and doubts. My body and mind are exhausted and there is no end in site. Had the inventory arrived in tact it only would have taken a few hours to get them in order and onto the shelves we bought and it wouldn’t have been as overwhelming. Oh yes and the boxes they chose to ship things in were 7o lbs each 30 x 30 x 30 boxes that Tony and I had to put into a uhaul and transport here from the warehouse that received them spread out over 3 days. They skimped on tape, so many of them opened on their own out in the snow as we were carrying them into our place. My life long dream of running a lingerie store has become nothing but an absolute money pit of a nightmare. I knew it would be hard work and a big learning curve but I didn’t think I’d be wasting DAYS fixing other peoples screw ups.
Delivery #2, about a 1/3 of the items
On top of it I don’t have children but I do have pets. I’ve had a cat for 17 years. He has made many guest appearances at borntobebound, futilestruggles, Girl Next Door, gotcuffs and several others. I got him when I got my first apartment in college. No matter what has gone on in my life the cat was there and a part of it and happy to sit on my lap and purr. He was personality plus and a good companion. I don’t know an adult life without him. He died on Thursday. He had been old, sick and weak but he took a nose dive in a matter of 5 hrs. He was suffering and it was heartbreaking because the damn cat represents a lot more to me than just being a cat, him passing away somehow reconfirms that my young adult years are long gone (I’m 35). I didn’t even have time to mourn, 3 hours of downtime with him while he was dying and then back to work. I’m emotional and wear all of my emotions of my sleeve. I wanted an entire night of drinking wine and feeling sorry for myself and looking at photos from a long time ago. That would have hit the spot. He held my finger with his paw and took his final breath in my arms. To make things worse I thought the big dog Sookie was sick Friday when I got up she wasn’t responsive to much of anything. It turns out she is just heartbroken! I had no idea that kind of thing would happen! It is hard to see and makes my heart hurt even more. My little yorkie Simon is totally clueless. I have been living at our studio with the pets for well over a month because I’m working too many hours to make it worth going home at all. I always loved the studio because it represented bondage fun and party time, but not so much anymore.
I don’t mind working hard, but I hate wasting time and fixing things that shouldn’t need fixing. I also understand that there are plenty of people working 15 -18 hour days that will never be able to do anything other than that… I get it, just for me and the life I’ve gotten used to this is really bad. The -10 degree days don’t help.
So as I mentioned a while back, most emails to me will not be responded to right now, there simply are not enough hours in the day. This is a screen shot of my phone from this afternoon.
Very behind at living...
I try not to be too much of a whiner. I just feel buried absolutely buried right now.
If you’ve ever thought about sending me something- a happy card, a sweater for a model on the site to wear, a kind of tape you like for a gag, a hot pair of heels you’d like to see someone wear, a $10 coffee gift card, a pair of fuzzy slippers or just join the site for a month if you have been considering it, etc, etc…now would be a good time. It would be nice to pick up the mail to find something thoughtful. I would make sure to send a thank you cellphone clip via email. I was sent to boarding school in Connecticut when I was 15, getting packages was the greatest thing ever since I was trapped up on a hill, I’m feeling trapped now just at the bottom trying to work my way back up.
Thanks for reading this, and thanks even more if the entire thing didn’t make you just roll your eyes in disgust at me for being so mopey when life could be worse.
Oh and on another note the last two mp4 clips were encoded differently so that you might be able to stream from your desktop….I hope it works.
Have a good weekend! Have some fun for me and give your pets big hugs.
JJ
FRIDAY UPDATE
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The trunk opens and reveals a tall beautiful bound blond. Two brunettes pluck her from the trunk and assist her at hopping in. They get her to the fireplace, sit her down and remove her blindfold. They tie her up more, grope her and watch her drool all over herself before removing that gag and putting panties in her mouth and wrapping her head tightly with microfoam. The put tape above her eyes for a bit and laugh taking it off when a false eyelash comes off and they stick it on her as a mustache. They get her onto the floor and pull her shiny black pants down, pretty panties barely covering her nice ass. They have more fun with her and leave her there for a bit before her new male “friend” comes in to find her….
WEDNESDAY UPDATE
This was previously posted at Futilestruggles.com and is a few years old. Eric Cain is my closest pal and the person that introduced me to bondage. The sadist he is puts me in a terrible mood as soon as the clip begins by making me stand in a neck rope…I like to be choked and I like bondage but standing while being tied in heels just irritates me for some reason. So watch my bitchy expressions as he ropes me up, there is no hiding my disdain…and then watch my pantyhose hanging out from under those skin tight low cut shiny pants not meant for a girl built like me!
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In Erics words: It was late one night and I decided to tie JJ up and this is what happened… The clip starts with JJ’s wrists and legs bound with a rope around her neck and tied off overhead. She stands there for a while before I tie her elbows together. I then untie the neckrope and make her get on her knees. I continue adding more and more rope above and below her breasts and in between. I leave her on her knees for a while before I return with 2 big squishy balls that are stuffed in her mouth and then taped in. I lay JJ on her side and watch her struggle.
JJ is laying on the floor on her stomach. I walk up and hogtie her nice and tight. She struggles for a bit, but her hogtie isn’t tight enough, so I come back with more rope and make her hogtie much tighter this time. The last 4 minutes or so is of JJ enduring the hogtie and mmmpphing.
MONDAY UPDATE
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This feels like it was shot forever ago. My goal was to put Rain in a chicken wing knee point hogtie. She went along with my plan, wearing a big red ballgag, then sharing the two person liplocker gag with me, then her mouth was stuffed and a cleave was added. Her elbows are together and hoisted up. I use those really mean tweezer clamps on her and well into the clip she starts to cry a ton. I know these are subspace tears/ tears of joy. It is obvious that there is something very wrong- but as we change camera positions she signals to keep going with the clip. I’m not really a sadist…so I don’t enjoy seeing women cry over actual pain, but she didn’t call the scene and I know her well enough to believe that had something been happening to cause serious damage she would have stopped me. Eventually she is blindfolded so I don’t have to look at those tears and rope even wrapped around her mouth. She is stuck on her knees, nipple clamped, crotch roped, heavily gagged and crying…until I pull those nipple clamps off and the scene in. However I add the quick part when she tells us what went wrong- and even after all that she is smiling. What a great bondage girl…
FRIDAY UPDATE
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run time 15 minutes and 35 seconds
A cop car pulls up at Monica’s house and she comes outside. The officers tell her that she is under arrest and they cuff her and take her to their car. She can’t understand what is happening since has hasn’t gotten into any trouble. After a bit she realizes that the two aren’t cops at all. Her crooked father owes them a lot of cash and the only way to get it back is to hold is baby girl hostage. After a short ride they get out of of the car and push her against the wall of the garage. They tie her up and grope her, put panties on her head and then in her mouth. They wrap her head with an ace bandage to keep the panties in and put her in a balltie, photograph her and head off to have a chat with her daddy.
BONUS UPDATE!
Sadly there was no sound in the first half of this clip!!! So it starts where the sound started, and I’m posting it as a bonus update. The true Friday update will be up later this weekend . A real shame because I really enjoyed making this clip!!
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The back story- A younger woman has taken JJ’s position as a sales rep at a company. Out with the old and in with the new, plus the new will work for a lot less money. JJ has heard about what is going to happen and she sets out to scare the young girl away from the position. Casey has been tied at the elbows, legs, gagged with panties and a cleave gag when the clip begins. Her nipple clamps are put on her nose and nipples and she is manhandled and threatened. She gets a crotch rope and a snug hogtie with panties over her head and black tape around that and she is left there to struggle.
WEDNESDAY UPDATE
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Riley Jane is a pornstar that stole a bunch of cash from the register at the bar in the studio that the Corrupt Security Guard works. Naturally she is told she can stay and play for a bit or deal with the cops. When the video begins Riley is in a holding cell with her wrists cuffed behind the back, a chain around her waist and through her crotch, a ballgag and handcuffs on her ankles. The new guard arrives and starts to have fun with the girl. Handcuffing her natural boobs and tying up her arms with lots of rope. The small ball is changed out for one that is almost 3 inches and you can see that her mouth is hurting. Her boobs have been nipple clamped and pulled up. She is walked outside the cell to a post and told to sit. Her elbows split the pole. A chain is wrapped around her body and the post and a collar added. That gag is taken out and a huge pair of satin panties resembling a pillow case are stuffed in her mouth and her head wrapped with duct tape. a rope is added from her ankles to the post across from her so her feet are elevated. A pair of leg irons has been added to the collar and then added to her ankles. Her pantyhose are ripped open. Her feet are slapped with a crop and stabbed with her high heel, ace bandage is wrapped around her eyes and mouth. Once she is removed from that position the gag comes off and the ace bandage is used as a cleave. Her ropes are removed (mostly off screen) and her wrists are handcuffed behind the post. Her legs are brought up over her head and cuffed back there. Her toes are tied together with rope and she is spanked and played with. A chain is wrapped around her legs giving her much less room to move around.
MONDAY UPDATE
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Lovely Davina is a willing participant as I tie her up, tie her boobs up, nipple clamp her while wearing a harness gag, and add nose hooks. I tie her chest down a little so she is stuck with her back in a strange position. Then I remove some of those ropes and swap out the harness gag for a big pair of red lace panties and some blue vetwrap and then hogtie her tying her hair back into the tie…Who likes nose hooks? I’ve always hated them…now I’m a little sad that this pair doesn’t pull her nose back enough and I feel like I need to get something a little more intense looking….lol
FRIDAY UPDATE
The new model to this site is London Andrews and I have been a LONG time fan of her glamour, pin up and art images over the years!!!
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JJ is on the phone with her girlfriend London Andrews. She is due back at any moment so the two can go on a date for Valentines Day. She hangs up the phone and immediately hears the door. It isn’t London though it is her jealous exboyfriend Tony. He’s mad and accusing her of going on a date with someone for Valentines Day. He broke in. He shoves her on the bed and opens the drawer where they kept rope as a couple. He gets her tied up at the elbows, wrists and legs as she protests that it hurts and she hasn’t been tied up in a long time. He also gets two pairs of panties from the drawer and shoves them in her mouth and wraps her head tightly with a cleave gag. He is gone from the room when London appears and he comes in and grabs her. He is instantly enraged that JJ is indeed dating someone and that it is a woman. London yells at him calling him crazy and possessive. He just ignores her and pulls her big boobs from her dress. He smashes JJs head into her cleavage. Then he tips JJ over on her shoulder and puts her into a balltie, rendering her completely helpless as he continues to tie up London. He stuffs her mouth with panties and wraps her head with vetwrap as a cleave. Then he hogties them both, forcing their heads together for gagged kisses and remarking about London not even wearing any panties. He leaves them there but not before adding the rest of the vetwrap over the mouth.
Hi Everyone,
I’m sorry for the delay in getting back to the thought felt emails and questions about sessions and custom videos. It is not my intention to come off rude and I really appreciate the time and effort it takes to write me and I understand there are thousands of other fetish girls you could be spending your hard earned money on by joining their sites etc. I have never, ever been this busy in my life and I ran a company prior to doing borntobebound! Taking over the girdlebound website has been a lot more overwhelming than I imagine and it is no where near done. Every single thing has to be done from scratch or completely redone and the amount of inventory coming my way is almost too much to comprehend. There has been an overwhelming amount of things for me to learn that are time consuming and frustrating and just so new to me on top of the endless out of pocket purchases that need to be made to run the company correctly. Since I returned from WV I can’t remember a less than 12 hr workday, most are more like 15 including weekends. Things will get much worse before they get better but I’m determined to make it to enjoy the better part. It I just isn’t possible for me to be doing more in a day right now. I am working hard to put the right fuel in my body and even recently started seeing a personal trainer to stay strong and motivated in all aspects of my life because there is no time to be sitting around or to get sick. I’m a fantastic delegator but there are a lot of things that I have to do myself. Please don’t worry though Borntobeboud will continue to be updated 3 times a week, but understand why I haven’t gotten back to you. Please reconsider before waiting a day and not hearing from me to send a nasty follow up message telling me I’m ungrateful or a bitch because it simply isn’t true…
Thanks for trying to understand
JJ
As always if you have technical concerns Tony is happy to answer the things I am no good at answering- support@borntobebound.com