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I had Gigi and Jim here and I wasn’t online much. The good news is that I did get clips with both Gigi and Jim and he even tied me up. It had been a while. I  had to fire my contractor while they were here. I was at my wits end so sadly I’m still showering with a pool shower hooked up to a laundry tub in the basement even tho I hired the guy Sept 27 AND the man I fired fell through the rafters and now my foyer has a big hole in the ceiling, sadly it was one of the only finished spaces in the house. I just can’t seem to win with these contractors and my patience and funds are all dried up.

Today, Monday I’ll get your third update of last week and hopefully one for this week up.  Adara is now here and we will be shooting some customs she has lined up and Tuesday I’ll be shooting a quick click of Dominica because that is all she has time for and then Anna so it is going to be a very long few days. Plus I feel like my entire future is up in the air right now and things are incredibly tense…I’m really grasping at straws here guys and happy to be a woman where we are allowed to be so honest about our feelings.

I have not been in my emails in a few days and even then I was only opening ones I knew were easy to answer I am going to try to get to a few before I fall asleep.

I hope everyone had a peaceful weekend and happy Monday.

Peace, love and bondage always-

JJ

Journal Update

Hi everyone. Many of you know I haven’t looked in my emails since fall of 2016. I haven’t been on Tumblr or said much on twitter or been on fetlife. I have been posting fairly regularly to instagram lately tho if you’d like to follow me there. The account is private but just send a request. My name there is plush1…..

Tony/ hubby/gotcuffs answers the support emails here but aside from that nothing happens. I haven’t done sessions or, done my own customs or taken requests or corresponded with fans- absolutely no one at all. At this point I’m ready but I have horrible anxiety about looking in my inbox. I know there will be some really hateful, angry messages and the idea of going so far back gives this anxious woman anxiety. So Tony archived my old messages a week ago, so when I go in there I’ll only see the most recent messages- just to not overwhelm myself.

That being said I’m ready to start customs but I’m going to have rules for now so I don’t get overhwhelmed… I’ll only be doing one girl at a time. I’m going to start with Fayth on Fire who I will be shooting the 10th and 12th of this month. She has been doing a lot of bondage and is extra tough and she switches!! So she will be available for bondage customs for this site or gotcuffs customs. When you inquire please give me some details- tie/ gag details, storyline idea, outfit wants. I will then send you a price. I don’t charge per minute or cut the clip off at a certain time. I shoot until its done and no one ever complains that my customs are too short…. I charge based on things like how long it will take overall and how hard it will be.  More about my customs, we don’t memorize lines, but we happily follow the storyline idea. I like things to flow organically. If there are key words and or key phrases that you want to hear that is no problem but we can’t memorize a script or keep cutting to look at it.  Customs can be paid via amazon giftcards emailed or Square for credit cards. 

Email: jj@borntobebound.com

Hi to those of you really wondering where I’ve been outside of the website-

I’ve been absent from emails and most of social media for months and months and I’ve made promises I didn’t keep here by saying I’d be in/ on them. I truly haven’t read emails in ages and I haven’t done customs (aside from ones Adara brought me) and I haven’t seen anyone for Domme sessions.  On occasion I post to instagram under Plush1 but I don’t even have the other social media sites on my new phone at this time or even my email accounts. I have been away from it all truly just working on me. *Of course Tony gets the emails sent to support.

Some of you know I had been sickly for a long time… Things got really, really bad last summer when I’d lost most of my hair, eyebrows, was hardly eating but swollen as hell, deathly pale despite going outside, covered in bruises without any beatings, open sores that left me scarred for life, horrible depression and anxiety, 25 day periods, carpal tunnel and more that I’ll leave to your imagination. I couldn’t sleep but I couldn’t do anything while I was awake either. I was falling asleep around 10am, sometimes I wouldn’t sleep for 24 hour periods despite my exhaustion. I was a shell of my former self and on my death bed with a low body core temp of 95.5 after years of way too much physical, emotional and environmental stress paired with poor nutrition and little rest basically. The discovery of the low temperature answered all of the questions about my lousy health and mental status over the last few years and pointed me in the right direction after thinking I was just doomed.

Healing has been a slow go with lots of trial and error and a few crashes after feeling confident about leading a normal life which I’ve mentioned before. I have a great doctor who is treating my whole body and not just each separate failing part of me.  I just got bloodwork back the 4th (my wedding anniversary) which of course says my thyroid is at a standstill and I’m very anemic but my cholesterol and blood sugar and those things are in good shape. I’ve been eating super clean- all organic, no American brominated gluten products, no added sugars or fake sugars, no water with flouride, no GMOs and blah, blah, blah. After the 4th new things have been added to my already ridiculous daily routine of supplements- a prescription natural thyroid pill, a lot more lugals iodine, a drinkable iron supplement from Germany, and daily B12 shots. Despite enjoying what botox injected into my 11s do for my exhausted 38 year old face I’m not into needles so giving myself daily shots is not enjoyable, but hopefully that will only last a month and give me lots of energy and help the anemia. My doctor seems to think that in two months after this adjustment period I’ll feel better than I have in the last 9 years and I should naturally drop some lbs. I waited too long to get bloodwork done, its true but I was in very bad shape emotionally and physically and I was afraid to get horrible news. I wanted to wait until I had changed my lifestyle and reached a healing plateau so that is what I did. I went for the bloodwork when my health started declining yet again but I was confident that I was much, much better than last summer/ fall.

I did go to Florida for a week and I stayed with my boy bestie Eric Cain in the woods for a few days and allowed myself a couple of days at the beach. He had a custom for me that we didn’t finish before he left Detroit for Florida for the winter. I had told him I’d come visit this winter and the buyer was ok with us shooting it months later Eric said. The custom money waiting really prodded me to get the heck out of the cold. Eric told me I seemed more full of life than I had in years and years and he knows me. He was the first to ever tie me up in 2006 and we talk almost daily even when I don’t talk to others for months and months. I did the custom which was mostly bondage and not his typical beatings and when we were done I suggested we add a second part outdoors. HA! I blew him and myself away with that one. He will edit it and whenever he gets around to that he will post it on his clips4sale site and I’ll post it here.

I was reluctant to set up shoots with hotties I didn’t know or people that would only want to see me to make money off of me because I didn’t know how I’d be feeling or what I’d be able to do and I am in no position to pay kill fees or stress myself out. My temp had dropped down dangerously low again and my body was betraying me at that time and I was going to Florida mostly to warm back up.  I did get some shoots in with people I’m friendly with and I was feeling very good there, in fact I shot at least one clip every day I was there aside from the last day. The warmth is an obvious bonus for people that run cold like me but shooting while I was away from here proved to be much easier, back here my mind races with the unfinished bullshit in this foreclosed on water house we had to buy and the problems at the bank (studio) and things to do with my other business etc, etc. So the Florida trip proved to be good for me in a lot of ways. I even got to socialize with people I assumed had forgotten me since I had been out of the loop for so long.

So anyway I’m back in Detroit trying to do the right things and happy about spring time. I’m alive and kicking and more clear headed than I have been in a very long time. I hope to rejoin social media and email world, do customs of my own and sessions some time in the near future but I’m moving at a snails pace so that I can keep moving forward, going backwards is too challenging emotionally.

As always thanks for your site memberships, clip purchases and well wishes… and to those of you that post my clips all over the place without permission shame on you. I hope karma bites you in the ass.

Sincerely,
JJ

Journal Update

Hello all.

Last Thursday my realtor told me not to rush to empty out my condo because this man decided he wanted to do a private inspection which would be scheduled after today and the closing would be set later. I woke up from a message saying that he changed his mind and wants to close the 16th still. So this weekend I didn’t move anything out. This weekend it also snowed a TON. Now Tony and I get to stop everything we are doing and empty out a 2200 sq ft condo with basement and two car garage. There aren’t too many large pieces of furniture left and many will be donated but the basement, garage and kitchen are loaded. I almost told the lady to go screw herself but I am so tired of barely making it living paycheck to paycheck with an extra property, especially with the holidays coming. It is REALLY stressful so I feel backed into a corner. I want this cash deal to go through but I am absolutely seething. Seething. I negotiated for a bit more than he wanted to pay. There was a lot of back and forth and I wasn’t budging because I’m not going to have a fire sale just because I’m paycheck to paycheck. I was making it work, but anyway I feel like he just wanted to screw with me- make me hussle because he didn’t get his way. When he went through the place it definitely seemed like we were living there.  Sahrye and her significant other were staying there so there were wet towels hanging up and the smell of human life and not just a closed up space staged for sale. Plus my closet was bursting at the seams with model wardrobe since I shot there all summer because the bank was in such bad shape.  I get the feeling this guy is smiling over inconveniencing me so badly-

In the end it will be great to get rid of the expense and to make my new house a home.

I have not answered emails about customs. I will be ready to do them after this nightmare week- and I’ll write everyone back when I can.  I haven’t done any math but hopefully I’ll have some cash to fix some things back up at the bank (studio) and get to sessioning and to buy the makeup that I’m out of that makes me pretty and to have the ability to hire a makeup artist again from time to time. Anyway thanks for your support…..

My magical concoction of supplements, actually sleeping, ridiculous amounts of water and removing the foods and humans that were poisoning me has drastically improved my quality of life (and the lives of those that are dear to me). Hopefully I can work on my looks again soon. I have not been permitted to do any cardio. Apparently it is the number one thing aside from stress that will throw people like me into another dangerous adrenal crash. I did ok moving all that office furniture in and out…..but this week will be a good indicator as to how my body and mind are really doing- so much stress, so much physical exercise packing and moving all that stuff and furniture. If I make it through this week on my feet I’d say I’m ready for some cardio and resistance training in moderation, not so intense like what I was doing a few years back when my health started to spiral out of control.

2017 is going to be my year, which like I’ve said before just means better content for you all-

Happy Monday…..

PS I want to do a clip or two with Eric Cain (futilestruggles) before he goes off to Florida for the winter SOON… Interested in a custom with us? He is all set up to shoot a few girls at my studio with his unique way of shooting with so many cameras. You can email him futilestruggles@yahoo.com since I’m not in my emails and he is. So I’m bendy for my size guys but I’m not into his type of beatings (for any amount of $) which is why I haven’t shot with my BFF in years but that little taste with  Je C got me real interested!!!

I’m sorry about the late update. If your membership expired this weekend and you want the clip of Sahrye and I that you are entitled to please write to support@borntobebound.com with your old username and password and I’ll get it to you within a couple days.

So the day I was supposed to do the bulk of the shooting with Sahrye didn’t work out because my sister in law decided to have her baby a week early shortly after I announced that I would be in my emails looking for customs for her. I was supposed to be there, and I was- holding a leg and cutting the chord!!! Wow, what a beautiful life experience that was and she handled it with dignity and grace!! I’m not a mom and I’ll never be a mom but that was absolutely incredible and now I have a perfect little niece. My brother is very conservative and very into modesty so it almost killed him having me there watching such an intimate moment because of his own hang ups, but she wanted me there and maybe just maybe it will make my brother who is very against the idea that I do what I do for a living and I a little bit closer. Only time will tell. So anyway Tony picked up the slack and shot Sahrye that day until I came back and then I shot the clip of her tying me for my dear friend Jochen that I just posted and boy I look haggard….long day, but I was feeling fine despite my looks!! Anyway Sahrye decided she could get a bit more work and stay a few more days. I’ll be shooting her again Wednesday afternoon before she leaves and I will get into my emails and dig for some last minute customs. I keep saying that…I know. I know. I’m the worst.

I don’t want to be up now, which is amazing but I needed to get you guys those late updates and I plugged a space heater in and it shut my computer down just as I was about to start exporting the Anna clip and it hadn’t saved. GGGRRRRRR. Anyway I can catch up on sleep tomorrow if my body lets me which will be great

Yes, I need to login and manual add a few of you generous guys that sent me things, but I’m afraid now I’ll really mess that up- the longer I wait the more content will be there and the more time I’ll add- so it is not all bad.

In other news I just signed the papers accepting a cash offer on my condo tonight!!!! They want to close the 16th of this month and they want the keys then and I agreed to that so WOW, I have a lot more packing and moving to do FAST! It was staged for sale and I left so much that I didn’t use on a regular basis to make it look very lived in so there would be no low ball offers. So after this week there won’t be anymore clips in the red room with the wood floors. I say goodbye to the place I started my bondage career at, the home I made on my own as a single woman. I have mixed emotions. I’m glad it sold with the potential hazards from being built on a brownfield and it will be sooooo magical not paying bills there and getting some cash for the rest of the kitchen here and a real bathroom, not just a pool shower in the utility room, lol, but that place was mine all mine and very affordable and easy to manage. Tony (gotcuffs) and I were married over a year ago but it is really just now that I feel officially married- the bank and this home is ours together- not just one of ours, that is a new feeling for sure. Most women probably don’t think of combined property making them feel more married than that marriage certificate, but I’m not most women.  Good thing we like each other, lol.

This year is coming to an end, and boy am I ready for it to end. I’m thinking 2017 will be incredible for me- so many heavy weights are being lifted from my shoulders right now- most importantly getting my health back- or I mean better than it has ever been in my adult life. Knowledge is power- for me anyway….

Night night, JJ

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hi everyone,

I never got to emails and I’m sure there are those of you wanting a Sahrye clip. We will now be shooting all evening on the 1st and she is really looking forward to customs and like I said I haven’t gotten to the emails…

So I’m super duper wiped out. My body does not want to be awake now (which is a good thing) but I really wanted to get you a clip posted and of course my internet is crawling….

I for sure will be in my emails a bunch tomorrow (today now) mostly handling the Sahrye (above)  custom requests and adding anyone to the site that sent gifts or joined by way of amazon- Really, truly.  Also Amanda Marie was here earlier if anyone missed out on a custom with her because I wasn’t in my emails the good news for me is she moved back to Ohio and she would like to shoot frequently so she will be back soon and you will get your chance.

Good news I’m doing well, my brain is working better and we made some improvement on the bank (studio) basement soooo I’m almost ready to session again!!

AND….Eric  Cain was over when I was shooting Je C and he tied us both up for a damsel clip. It was just (his version) of a damsel clip and not a long drawn out torture clip but I got through it without any problems. He hasn’t tied me or Je C in AGES, now I think I’ve gotta shoot with him again before he goes to Florida for winter. I’m up for the challenge. I think….

gotta get through shooting each day this week though and then take a shoot break though-

Night night everyone.

Thanks for your support, I really truly need it.

JJ

Oh and if you are into the girdles and stockings check out just fi gures dot com – quick cyber sale happening NOW, & yes they do have your size 😉

Hi everyone,

I think this is the absolute longest I have been away from emails and social media in my entire life but the good news is I’m healing. It has been interesting living in the real world and not the online world. I didn’t have to deal with my friends and family battling it out over Trump and Clinton. I haven’t felt the pressure to buy anyhing or look a certain way. I haven’t gotten annoyed or upset at anyone. I haven’t experienced any major illness in a couple weeks now and I believe I am aware of the triggers that knock me on my ass. I am now waking up at the time I was falling asleep the last couple years!!! I wake up feeling rested and hungry instead of exhausted and sick to my stomach. I haven’t felt the need to take my temp in a few weeks but I know it is way up- no more brain freezes, freezing or falling asleep limbs or serious skin disorders. I am having a cup of coffee maybe twice a week instead of several times daily. I haven’t needed anything for sleep or anxiety and I have a positive outlook. The best part is I never had my lady parts removed and I’m not on any prescription medication. I am in awe of the body and minds ability to heal given the right tools. Anyway, I’m on the upswing and loving it and hope to ease back into social media and other things that I’m slightly afraid will knock me off track. I’ve been doing absolutely everything possible to be to sleep early and get work done early, but after so many years as a night owl, even before the real illness set in it has been a big adjustment. I’m probably the only one in Detroit thankful that it is getting dark so early because it is helping me feel tired at the appropriate time. I haven’t felt as much (natural) energy in ages, perhaps never since childhood. My husband Tony can’t believe the changes in me.

Plus I feel like the supermoon may have brought me some good luck after years of horrible misfortune, lol. 12K in kitchen cabinets for 4K that we won’t be able to install until mid Dec and all new office furniture for my lingerie co for free from a family friend that retired and sold out. It took Tony and I 15 hours over the weekend to move the heavy stuff in and set it up but now that it is done I’m delighted.

So for those of you that recently sent gifts and are waiting on a password I’ll be in emails Friday night and I’ll make you all passwords and give you extra time. If you sent me emails ages ago and want to move to the front of the line please resend. Tony’s parents just decided to come to town for Thanksgiving two days ago so we spent a good portion of the afternoon making our home very clean and very vanilla.

but Friday it is back to shooting with Riley Jane

The 26th is Tonys bday!

The 28th Je C is back!

The 29th I’m shooting Amanda Marie – Amanda is available for bondage customs

The 30th I’m shooting Sahrye – yes she rescheduled!! Want a custom???? Hopefully I can add another evening in during her stay.

Nov 2 the college cutie Anna

jj at borntobebound.com

Journal update

I told a tall tale, I didn’t get to my emails here this weekend. I worked on my home and socialized which was magical. We went to www.thedamnedshow.com Saturday night last minute since I never know how I’ll feel and much to my delight I ran into a lot of people I like and miss that I didn’t know would be there since I haven’t been frequenting social media. I disappeared from my personal social media accounts ages and ages ago as I felt more and more off- maybe two years and I disappeared from the things happening in town quietly. It is only you guys that hear me whine and complain and get the heads up. I think it is just easier to ramble into cyberspace than to bitch to people in real life because everyone has problems, no one likes to hear people complain and maybe I’m a little afraid of being disappointed in how people react…I don’t know, it is complicated. I’ve seen a lot of people I know seek out support and help on their facebook account. I did the opposite and disappeared from everyone. Aside from finding it easier to ramble into cyberspace than to talk to people that know me in the flesh I think it is important to post things here because sometimes the updates are late or I’m obviously really off in the videos. You do spend your hard earned money here so I feel like I should explain myself- If I don’t make people promises I can’t keep I don’t need to try to explain myself which makes life so much easier but perhaps more lonely.  I hate letting people down.

I woke up Sunday feeling pretty good so then we went to a burlesque show at a beautifully restored place Cliff Bells. My friend Cherry Busom who goes by Lushes LaMoan to dance and has appeared on this site a few times over the years organized it and danced.  I wanted to see her and many others. I’ll see if I can upload the little cellphone videos I made for you Burly Q fans… God I wish I had the balls to do burlesque.

I really love the October Detroit events and it was good to get out after a week of feeling very, very off. I didn’t stay out late or overdo it and I didn’t fall to pieces today! I’m coming to understand what my body needs to heal and function properly with lots of little trial and errors. I still haven’t done the bloodwork that awaits.

Halloween we went to work on the bank (studio) again. I haven’t shot there since spring….the last basement flood really got to me emotionally, but it is much cooler in there now and easier for me to work there- plus time heals all wounds I guess and my immune system is stronger. It is still very sad down there and I know many of you want to come session, but I’m not comfortable with strangers visiting there just yet. Trust me I’m getting stronger, feeling more clear headed and I could reallllllly use the session funds to fix the place back up but like I said I’m just not comfortable enough with strangers there- yet…. I’ll post a couple photos from tonight when I can, it is a bummer…

I suppose I could session on the main floor with the lingerie co but it just feels wrong….maybe I need to get over that feeling.

On a brighter note I’m shooting there for the first time in ages later today the 1st and I’m shooting there the 2nd as well.

I’ll be doing the solo customs people are waiting for tonight too!!

Oh and Adara Jordin will be back the 12th if you’d like a custom-

JJ

Journal Update

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Hello all.

More than anything else I get emails from people asking if I have any clips with men in bondage or crossdressers/ t-girls in bondage or couples in bondage. At one time I had intended on making an entirely new site dedicated to those things but life got in the way. However because of all of the emails inquiring I’ve decided to put what little content I do have up here on borntobebound as I find it. I understand that many of you guys that are fully dominant find that kind of material to be boner killers so to prevent you from having to see it on the main page Tony added a BTBB men category. You can click on it if you want to check it out!  Please understand that I’m not promising new clips in that area on a regular basis or anything of the sort. I just thought it would be a nice gesture to provide those clips at no additional charge to those of you that are members here and interested. I know there are a lot of you-

On another note, Sahrye was a regular and fan favorite here for a while but I haven’t seen her since spring of 2015 I don’t think!!!  She plans to be here the 25th of this month (last minute planning) and she is anxious for some custom video work! I should actually have time spread out with her over two evenings which gives me time to do bondage customs with her and of course Tony can be in the clips as well. For you gotcuffs.com fans she will be shooting 5 hours with Tony for that site. For those of you that don’t know Sahrye is a good little actress with a niiice body and pretty expressive face and she can tolerate tight ties and mean gags. She also knows how to tie/ top so if you’d like a bondage custom with her please read the info on my customs at the top of this page and send me an email with the relevant information. I can not give you a price until I know what you want to see….

other custom opportunities with:

October 21 Adara Jordin

October 25/26 Sahrye

very soon local newbie Dominica returns

November 2nd Rachel Adams

before the end of the year Sarah Brooke will return

before the end of the year Vicious Vamp will return

I also have 3 excited local(ish) new girls that LIKE bondage lined up within the next month and there will probably be some other girls in there as well, hopefully Riley Jane & Simone. I just have to get through this month-

If you don’t know what those ladies look like but think you might be interested in a custom you can type their names in over on the right hand side

That is it for now…..

Journal Update

Well we had bad storms in Detroit the other day and guess what happened- the bank basement flooded and left lots of sludge behind. Luckily the floor is now just cement and much of the furniture has been relocated to our new home even though we are keeping the bank/ studio. Sadly it still takes tons of time and energy to clean out and plenty was ruined. The sewers were just overwhelmed. It happened to everyone in the neighborhood…This is just going to be a thing I guess unless we install some $25,000+ backflow system which is not guaranteed at all. The foundation and brick work we had done held but the city sewers did not. It is after 2am and Tony is over there now working on it but I just can’t. This is the first time I haven’t helped with a clean up there…

I lost it when I saw what had happened, sobbed like a baby but I bounced back. We were busy at the condo getting it ready for the realtor to come list it the following day. We assumed the bank basement would flood since the streets were flooded near our home but there was nothing we could do so we didn’t go look that night we just carried on working…

Everything is out of the condo for the staging process but I need to fix a not to code dryer vent, put in flooring on the second floor which we keep meaning to do, fix some settling cracks on the third floor. That all needs to be done by Saturday (by us) for the first showing. Nothing got done this evening at the condo because of the bank basement issue AND Friday evening we are shooting Rose, aka Illustrious Rogue and the new girl Dominica again because I only shot that one clip of her. I need some variety in my ladies here I know. I know!! Good news for me at the new house the air conditioner is working and later today people come to clean out the vents so we won’t be breathing in years of neglect and remodeling crap. The bathrooms were gutted so my shower situation is funny. I bought an outdoor pool shower, hung a shower curtain by a hula hoop and installed it in what was once a laundry room. Hey, it works…lol. On another note, related to the image below you all see Adara is here A LOT and of course she wants to shoot but I’ve done so much with her…..in order to help with that situation together she and I (and Tony) will do customs for super cheap, like modeling fee prices (within reason) so if a custom with her interests you write me jj at borntobebound.com and patience please….

 

On the health front that desiccated thyroid stuff I’m taking seems to be helping me A LOT and perhaps the low gluten and sugar. My core body temp is up to 97.1 from 96.4  still wayyyyyyyy too low but it is improving- so is my mood, lady issues, memory, energy level etc, etc… and all that we can ask in life is that we keep on improving. I also found a Netflix Documentary called Food Matters extremely helpful so if you are curious check it out.

Night night everyone and thanks for your support 🙂

Sincerely,

JJ

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