JOURNAL UPDATE
Hi Everyone,
A total bitch fest, feel free to skip to the updates.
Still struggling to get the lingerie company organized. The people that shipped the inventory couldn’t have done a shittier job packing it up to send it and I can’t help but think that the fella would have been a little more careful had he been sending it to a legitimate company and not some fetish girl named JJ Plush, complete negligence on behalf of the company that shipped the stuff! I worked a total of 41 hours from Thursday night to Monday night just putting items into containers because they were shipped so poorly that about 50 of the plastic bins containing the items shattered so lingerie went everywhere. So then on top of that 50 new $8 bins had to be purchased. I also had friends helping for a total of 21 hours from Friday-Monday night and had to pay them each $10 an hour for their help. So then I was 4 days behind and I couldn’t ship out the items, two weeks of backed up orders! On top of it I’m inventorying 1000s of items because there wasn’t a real system in place at the other company. I’m not going to lie, I’ve been having little crying fits and doubts. My body and mind are exhausted and there is no end in site. Had the inventory arrived in tact it only would have taken a few hours to get them in order and onto the shelves we bought and it wouldn’t have been as overwhelming. Oh yes and the boxes they chose to ship things in were 7o lbs each 30 x 30 x 30 boxes that Tony and I had to put into a uhaul and transport here from the warehouse that received them spread out over 3 days. They skimped on tape, so many of them opened on their own out in the snow as we were carrying them into our place. My life long dream of running a lingerie store has become nothing but an absolute money pit of a nightmare. I knew it would be hard work and a big learning curve but I didn’t think I’d be wasting DAYS fixing other peoples screw ups.
Delivery #2, about a 1/3 of the items
On top of it I don’t have children but I do have pets. I’ve had a cat for 17 years. He has made many guest appearances at borntobebound, futilestruggles, Girl Next Door, gotcuffs and several others. I got him when I got my first apartment in college. No matter what has gone on in my life the cat was there and a part of it and happy to sit on my lap and purr. He was personality plus and a good companion. I don’t know an adult life without him. He died on Thursday. He had been old, sick and weak but he took a nose dive in a matter of 5 hrs. He was suffering and it was heartbreaking because the damn cat represents a lot more to me than just being a cat, him passing away somehow reconfirms that my young adult years are long gone (I’m 35). I didn’t even have time to mourn, 3 hours of downtime with him while he was dying and then back to work. I’m emotional and wear all of my emotions of my sleeve. I wanted an entire night of drinking wine and feeling sorry for myself and looking at photos from a long time ago. That would have hit the spot. He held my finger with his paw and took his final breath in my arms. To make things worse I thought the big dog Sookie was sick Friday when I got up she wasn’t responsive to much of anything. It turns out she is just heartbroken! I had no idea that kind of thing would happen! It is hard to see and makes my heart hurt even more. My little yorkie Simon is totally clueless. I have been living at our studio with the pets for well over a month because I’m working too many hours to make it worth going home at all. I always loved the studio because it represented bondage fun and party time, but not so much anymore.
I don’t mind working hard, but I hate wasting time and fixing things that shouldn’t need fixing. I also understand that there are plenty of people working 15 -18 hour days that will never be able to do anything other than that… I get it, just for me and the life I’ve gotten used to this is really bad. The -10 degree days don’t help.
So as I mentioned a while back, most emails to me will not be responded to right now, there simply are not enough hours in the day. This is a screen shot of my phone from this afternoon.
Very behind at living...
I try not to be too much of a whiner. I just feel buried absolutely buried right now.
If you’ve ever thought about sending me something- a happy card, a sweater for a model on the site to wear, a kind of tape you like for a gag, a hot pair of heels you’d like to see someone wear, a $10 coffee gift card, a pair of fuzzy slippers or just join the site for a month if you have been considering it, etc, etc…now would be a good time. It would be nice to pick up the mail to find something thoughtful. I would make sure to send a thank you cellphone clip via email. I was sent to boarding school in Connecticut when I was 15, getting packages was the greatest thing ever since I was trapped up on a hill, I’m feeling trapped now just at the bottom trying to work my way back up.
Thanks for reading this, and thanks even more if the entire thing didn’t make you just roll your eyes in disgust at me for being so mopey when life could be worse.
Oh and on another note the last two mp4 clips were encoded differently so that you might be able to stream from your desktop….I hope it works.
Have a good weekend! Have some fun for me and give your pets big hugs.
JJ