Journal update
I told a tall tale, I didn’t get to my emails here this weekend. I worked on my home and socialized which was magical. We went to www.thedamnedshow.com Saturday night last minute since I never know how I’ll feel and much to my delight I ran into a lot of people I like and miss that I didn’t know would be there since I haven’t been frequenting social media. I disappeared from my personal social media accounts ages and ages ago as I felt more and more off- maybe two years and I disappeared from the things happening in town quietly. It is only you guys that hear me whine and complain and get the heads up. I think it is just easier to ramble into cyberspace than to bitch to people in real life because everyone has problems, no one likes to hear people complain and maybe I’m a little afraid of being disappointed in how people react…I don’t know, it is complicated. I’ve seen a lot of people I know seek out support and help on their facebook account. I did the opposite and disappeared from everyone. Aside from finding it easier to ramble into cyberspace than to talk to people that know me in the flesh I think it is important to post things here because sometimes the updates are late or I’m obviously really off in the videos. You do spend your hard earned money here so I feel like I should explain myself- If I don’t make people promises I can’t keep I don’t need to try to explain myself which makes life so much easier but perhaps more lonely. I hate letting people down.
I woke up Sunday feeling pretty good so then we went to a burlesque show at a beautifully restored place Cliff Bells. My friend Cherry Busom who goes by Lushes LaMoan to dance and has appeared on this site a few times over the years organized it and danced. I wanted to see her and many others. I’ll see if I can upload the little cellphone videos I made for you Burly Q fans… God I wish I had the balls to do burlesque.
I really love the October Detroit events and it was good to get out after a week of feeling very, very off. I didn’t stay out late or overdo it and I didn’t fall to pieces today! I’m coming to understand what my body needs to heal and function properly with lots of little trial and errors. I still haven’t done the bloodwork that awaits.
Halloween we went to work on the bank (studio) again. I haven’t shot there since spring….the last basement flood really got to me emotionally, but it is much cooler in there now and easier for me to work there- plus time heals all wounds I guess and my immune system is stronger. It is still very sad down there and I know many of you want to come session, but I’m not comfortable with strangers visiting there just yet. Trust me I’m getting stronger, feeling more clear headed and I could reallllllly use the session funds to fix the place back up but like I said I’m just not comfortable enough with strangers there- yet…. I’ll post a couple photos from tonight when I can, it is a bummer…
I suppose I could session on the main floor with the lingerie co but it just feels wrong….maybe I need to get over that feeling.
On a brighter note I’m shooting there for the first time in ages later today the 1st and I’m shooting there the 2nd as well.
I’ll be doing the solo customs people are waiting for tonight too!!
Oh and Adara Jordin will be back the 12th if you’d like a custom-
JJ