First- if you are waiting for an email responses from me expect it Friday or Saturday.
Second- if you are waiting for a solo or Tony & I custom I’ll be shooting tonight (finally) the 29th and and editing the following day.
Hello all,
Well I went to the specialist the 30th of August and I’ve got adrenal exhaustion phase c which is what caused the drastically low body temperature, inability to sleep until 10am in the end there and waking up terribly exhausted, sick to my stomach and unhappy to say the least, plus terrible anxiety, metabolism stopped, completely withdrawn from real friends and family the last few years and various physical ailments plaguing me that I tried to treat one by one- some with success thanks to probiotics. The problem with the adrenal glands is what ultimately caused the low thyroid a month long periods and it has been building for years and years…. I just didn’t know what was happening. I was just treating symptoms and not the root cause.
I was lucky to be self employed and make my own rules and hours. I was lucky that I don’t have kids and didn’t have typical mom duties. I AM lucky to have a spouse that was understanding and aware that I wanted nothing more but to be healthy and function normally like the rest of the world. I kinda wasted A LOT of years…. I didn’t know anything about adrenal glands or thyroid. I was never a sickly kid or young adult. I only missed school for chicken pox and the flu once! I never missed days in my vanilla career, although I always functioned better in afternoons.
Anyway I am well medicated (all natural things) because I did not like what conventional medicine had to say- take Prozac, take thyroid meds for life, get a hysterectomy. I didn’t believe this would “fix me” I thought those were bandaids- personally and I’m so tired of bandaids. I want to be healed. I have made fairly drastic dietary change to stimulate my adrenals and thyroid and to get my core body temp up into the safe zone. I’m now low gluten, low sugar and low caffeine but hey I get to have organic butter and even bacon and I’m never nauseated thinking about food or starving to death like the last couple years. I have not taken my temp since the doctors appointment and it was 96.4 that day, I know it is improving. I don’t have random numb limbs, weird aches and pains, complete loss of thoughts, dizzy spells upon standing, hair clumps aren’t coming out, no more scary rashes. I don’t want to see that it is still low and get discouraged…I will go for new bloodwork next week to monitor my improvement over the last month and make sure all is well.
Some days and minutes are great and others are terrible. Ive been told it can take me up to a year to heal since the damage has been happening for years and years but overall I’m pleased with the improvement and very happy I didn’t go the conventional medicine route and have my lady parts removed and feelings numbed with antidepressants. How many other people is this happening to? How many people trust the first opinion they get or don’t have the financial means or time to seek alternative routes. How many people do something permanent and drastic and completely wrong for their condition(s)?
Anyway, I digress….I do feel like I missed out on a lot the last few years- too exhausted, anxious, stupid, sickly and embarrassed to engage with my friends and family properly since we had no clue what was wrong with me. I guess that is the thing about having a bit more energy and brain power now I can think about all the things I screwed up or missed out on….I just withdrew, I didn’t want to be all doom and gloom- that is not my nature. I understand that people are only as high as the lowest person in the room and I didn’t want to be the lowest person…..so I just did my work and home improvements when once I was a very vivacious person.
Anyway I’m getting better as opposed to almost being dead which is where I was headed. My entire body was shutting down, all my organs. I wish I could post some of the no makeup, no hair and skin photos to show you my true condition from June and July but I don’t think this is the right venue for that being that I am a pornographer and all. I already say way too much personal stuff-
The absolute best thing about these supplements (definitely not meant for vegans/ vegetarians) is I feel tired before the sun comes up for the first time in about 5 years!!!! I wake up feeling like I’ve actually gotten rest- which I had forgotten could exist!! I always believed improper sleep/ wake patterns was the route cause of my sickness and misery. Plus my real hair (which you have not seen since 2012) and eyebrows and eyelashes are growing in more than falling out (thank goodness for makeup and hair clips) and I’m not as puffy shall we say…. My last menstrual cycle was NORMAL and not a month!! Amazing….and to think many people were pressuring me to “do the right thing and get my lady parts removed”.
I did have a terrible terrible anemic episode from simply taken asprin a couple weeks ago which was very shocking.
My body looked severely beaten for no reason- it was devastating emotionally. I had just been taking mineral salts for aches and pains but I had to shoot VV and my head hurt say too much from accidentally eating something with MSG. It was a reminder that I’m not even close to being all better and my system is extremely sensitive.
I’m dead set on doing all the right things to be better which includes reading about what is wrong with me and how to heal. The great news is I’m actually retaining information that I read for the first time in years….I no longer feel that I have dementia, which I assumed was stress and lack of sleep related. Maybe I’ll feel like tackling wordy customs again down the road, lol. I’m optimistic that in the following months I’ll have the brainpower and physical stamina to make you all incredible clips and to make my lingerie shop incredible and to do mind blowing sessions again for people that work hard and travel long distances to come see me. I just have to take baby steps especially while still trying to rehab my nightmare new house. I desperately need a peaceful place to retreat to and now that summer is over that won’t be outside looking at the water- opposite direction of the house.
I’ve been told I must, must, must rest and sleep and relax which is a terrible thing to say to a type A workaholic with a racing mind but I know how bad off I was In July and I absolutely can not go back to that or I’ll be dead. When I left the auto industry in Detroit and pursued things I loved I never thought I would end up more stressed out and sickly than I was there.
So you fellas that look at social media may have noticed I’ve all but disappeared but I’ll be back very soon- I’ve gotta keep advertising there so new bondage fans know I exist, lol. It’s just that in recent times I’ve been ignoring all things social media as to have more me time to make my home a comfortable place since my poor studio is so dreadful right now. September was ultra stressful because I wasn’t well enough to have so many people staying with me in my personal space- a space I assumed would be comfortable for visitors months ago on top of it but was not. I also wasn’t prepared to shoot a lot but I didn’t have the option. I can’t pay kill fees right now owning 3 properties. I absolutely must get something for my money.
For those of you that might have wildly stressful lives or that have experienced a traumatic event or two that are starting to feel run down or have illnesses that keep compounding like: frequent colds, sinus issues, headaches, acid reflux, dry flakey skin, exhaustion with a hard time sleeping, anxiety, manic episodes, dragging metabolism, adult acne, easy bruising, fibromiolgia, joint pain (menstrual issues for females), low testosterone for men, random numbness in hands and feet, severe brain fog, mood swings, bouts with walking pneumonia, a low code body temp or any combination of those things I truly recommend reading up on adrenal fatigue/ adrenal exhaustion and getting some proper supplements and making lifestyle changes. The vitamins can not hurt you!!!!! This is pretty in depth but Google away-
https://www.drlam.com/articles/adrenalexhaustion.asp
Let me say that your conventional Doctor most likely will tell you adrenal exhaustion does not exist because it is not something the pharmaceutical companies can cash in on directly. You know what they can cash in on are all the meds given for the list ailments I’ve mentioned above as well as any related surgeries- Now, now, now don’t get me wrong I’m not some hippy dippy woman that is against modern medicine and surgery. I just think we should be smart and listen to our bodies and look into what nutrients and supplements are lacking to make it operate correctly before jumping on the surgery and or pills for life but never getting well bandwagon. Never once did a conventional Doctor ask me about nutrition by the way. Has yours????
I am spewing on because I’ve been a shell of myself for years now. I’ve potentially lost brain cells permanently for running such a cold temperature for a couple years. The conventional doctors that I had access to could not help me heal. I’m healing now with all my lady parts in tact without having to take a bunch of hormones and other things for life- I’m glad I went with my leaking gut (lol) and skipped out on what conventional medicine had to say for this situation or I’d be writing you while healing from a hysterectomy on hormones for life and on Prozac!!! Then a month from now after healing from a pointless surgery I would still be fucking sick and miserable and pretty close to having type 2 diabetes. That’s really huge stuff right there and if I can help prevent anyone from suffering the same it is well worth the rant-
Many thanks to those of you that have been patient with my lack of responses and slow getting stuff done time- though I’m sure most of the people that sent nasties are not the type of people to take the time to read something like this.
Anyway, that’s that.
As always thanks for your support and take care of yourselves and your loved ones and remember to be kind- for everyone is fighting a hard fight that you know nothing about……
Yours,
(well on the road to physical & mental health which will equal better site content for you!!)
JJ
Now if only my condo would sell so I wouldn’t be so freaking paycheck to paycheck that would be super swell.